Soul cat.

So, I went to Silk's memorial last night for like four hours. I walked in and this girl was playing the guitar and singing this song and I immediately started crying.

The place was packed. There were a bunch of people from high school there that I haven't seen in years. It was sort of set-up like an open mic and people were sharing stories and singing songs and reading poems. Soo many people wanted to say something about him. I would have shared something but I was way too emotional and would have just started bawling. I was amazed at how many different people went up and shared different stories but all had pretty much the same things to say about him. They played a few video clips of him perfoming some spoken word and people were reacting as if he were there standing in front of us. It was so nice even though it made me cry. I can't explain how it feels to have lost not just an amazing friend but an amazing and beautiful person.

Whenever I was sad or bummed out about something, I would always magically get a call from him. He just had like a sixth sense or something but he could always feel when I was hurting over something. I have been waiting and waiting to get a phone call and to hear his voice telling me that everything would be okay and to be happy and that I was too good to cry but I haven't and I won't.

Anyway.. I am trying not to dwell on it and be so bummed. I think about how he would want me to go on and I know that he would definitely not want me to cry about it. I am just trying to keep his spirit and his love of life alive. It's just hard because he's been on my mind since I found out and I hear his voice in my head over and over all day long. He will definitely be missed. Someone said this last night, "mother nature took him and now he is all around us."

Here is an article on what happened if anyone is interested.